I was watching the last movie when I noticed him sit beside me on the floor, with two bottles of coke and a packet of crackers biscuit, which made me smile to myself, as I focused all my attention on the movie which was showing on his televisionβ¦β¦
βMary here is cola ooβ he managed to joke while i smiled, and looked at him in appreciation. We ate the biscuit and drank the coke in silence, as i returned my focus back to the movie once again.
He later held my hand gently, which really made me look at him with surprise, and he appealed to me with his eyes.
βPlease accept me into your life, iβm not a bad person, i promise and swear to keep your dignity and respect intact, i truly love youβ he begged.
βReally?β i asked, while he held my hand strongly.
βI swearβ he answered. I rolled my eyes and said nothing.
βPlease answer meβ he pleaded desperately.
Seriously seeing him beg me, really gladdened my heart, but i just pretended as if he was disturbing my peace.
βWhat do you want me to say again?β i asked, while he drew his face closer to mine.
βPlease just say yesβ he whispered. I looked into his eyes and saw love, desire and honesty in it, but i controlled myself and looked away.
βJust give me time, i will think about itβ. I replied
But surprisingly and out of nowhere, he drew closer to me and gave me a tight hug, this i received while i closed my eyes β¦β¦
But I soon got myself and gently pushed him away, while he looked at me gratefully, and with shinning eyes.
βI have never felt this way before, thank youβ he said, while i looked away and closed my eyes briefly, because i equally felt something strong when we hugged, which i have never felt for any guy before, not even my Ex..
I was unable to concentrate on the remaining part of the movie i was watching after the hug, because all my thoughts were now on him, and even though i was the one who pushed him away, i still wanted him to hug and hold me closer to himself, but then i had to control myself, because iβm nothing but an humble girl who has her pride and dignity to protect, and so i stood up minutes later, while he stared at me with his innocent face which always make me lose focusβ¦β¦..https://googleads.g.doubleclick.net/pagead/ads?client=ca-pub-6181959399492699&output=html&h=300&slotname=2430043962&adk=4001755456&adf=1426863913&w=360&ebfa=1&lmt=1590263908&rafmt=1&psa=1&guci=2.2.0.0.2.2.0.0&format=360×300&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.gospelbreed.com%2F2016%2F01%2Fstory-common-mistakes-ladies-make-in-a-relationship-episode-3%2F&flash=0&fwr=1&rpe=1&resp_fmts=3&sfro=1&wgl=1&adsid=ChAI8JOj9gUQ5ML7nd_dgpQXEkwAjEFt2QsxHP_qXLk1FyYBYwLGORq13s3H3-t5k0CiuT1J4o4B-kjcYE9TTj9YKCI_w0DqJumZ5gu8o1Y20xxOGKjs830suwadJ08r&dt=1590263906973&bpp=36&bdt=6220&idt=1506&shv=r20200519&cbv=r20190131&ptt=9&saldr=aa&abxe=1&cookie=ID%3D2b2b98b598166595%3AT%3D1583215786%3AS%3DALNI_Mag_IEtP4dmC3grAo7Z7fol2brhSA&crv=1&prev_fmts=0x0&prev_slotnames=3619009969&nras=1&correlator=2826982936445&frm=20&pv=1&ga_vid=1986428501.1583215776&ga_sid=1590263908&ga_hid=294853331&ga_fc=0&iag=0&icsg=2287813113318058&dssz=41&mdo=0&mso=0&u_tz=60&u_his=1&u_java=0&u_h=750&u_w=360&u_ah=750&u_aw=360&u_cd=24&u_nplug=0&u_nmime=0&adx=0&ady=2592&biw=360&bih=610&scr_x=0&scr_y=396&eid=21065786%2C21066085%2C21066142%2C26835106&oid=3&pvsid=3984276253257862&pem=162&ref=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.gospelbreed.com%2F2016%2F01%2Fstory-common-mistakes-ladies-make-in-a-relationship-episode-2%2F&rx=0&eae=0&fc=1924&brdim=0%2C0%2C0%2C0%2C360%2C0%2C360%2C610%2C360%2C610&vis=1&rsz=%7C%7CeEbr%7C&abl=CS&pfx=0&cms=2&fu=8336&bc=23&jar=2020-05-23-18&ifi=2&uci=a!2&btvi=2&fsb=1&xpc=FUL2RDKQp7&p=http%3A//www.gospelbreed.com&dtd=1678
βLet me go and sleep, iβm so tiredβ i said to him with a smile, while he equally stood up as well and held my hand.
βWill you come once you are through with your sleep?β he asked with a pleading face, while i looked down.
βI will tryβ I replied, but instead of letting me go, he drew closer to me, and hugged me again, while my soul melted. I immediately fled his room without looking backβ¦.
As i lay on my bed that evening, i battled with my thoughts and emotions, as i prayed for him to be real, because i really do not want to repeat the mistake i made with my Ex, who had equally looked so honest when i first met him, and so in love, i was with him then, that i freely gave him my virginityβ¦β¦.
Tears fell off my eyes as i remembered how he took my most precious asset, and i swallowed hard as i bit my lips. I knew i could never get over that trauma, because i knew the pain i passed through that fateful night. I thought he really loved me, just because he looked decent and said those words i wished to hear, I guess thatβs one problem every girl faces, because we never really can tell or know the guy who really loves us. Moreover, they all appear good and decent at first sight, that you wonβt really see the wolf in him, if you also do have feelings for him which will then blind you from his faults and before you know what, heβs had his way with you and itβs already too lateβ¦β¦β¦
My thoughts really drew much tears from my eyes that evening, and before i knew what was happening, i was already crying deeply, as my mind played back on how i lost my pride to Emmanuelβ¦β¦..
Itβs really something that touched my soul, spirit and body, but i didnβt know it was just a game to him. Only God will judge us all and here is the story of how i lost my treasureβ¦β¦
-To be continued-
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