ERRONEOUS WAYS TO LOVE – Pt3

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I was watching the last movie when I

noticed him sit beside me on the floor, with
two bottles of coke and a packet of
crackers biscuit, which made me smile to
myself, as I focused all my attention on the
movie which was showing on
his television……
“Mary here is cola oo” he managed to joke
while i smiled, and looked at him in
appreciation. We ate the biscuit and drank
the coke in silence, as i returned my focus
back to the movie once again.
He later held my hand gently, which really
made me look at him with surprise, and he
appealed to me with his eyes.
“Please accept me into your life, i’m not a
bad person, i promise and swear to keep
your dignity and respect intact, i truly love
you” he begged.
“Really?” i asked, while he held my hand
strongly.
“I swear” he answered. I rolled my eyes and
said nothing.
“Please answer me” he pleaded desperately.
Seriously seeing him beg me,
really gladdened my heart, but i just
pretended as if he was disturbing my
peace.
“What do you want me to say again?” i
asked, while he drew his face closer to
mine.
“Please just say yes” he whispered. I looked
into his eyes and saw love, desire and
honesty in it, but i controlled myself and
looked away.
“Just give me time, i will think about it”. I
replied
But surprisingly and out of nowhere, he
drew closer to me and gave me a tight hug,
this i received while i closed my eyes ……
But I soon got myself and gently pushed
him away, while he looked at me gratefully,
and with shinning eyes.
“I have never felt this way before, thank
you” he said, while i looked away and
closed my eyes briefly, because i equally
felt something strong when we hugged,
which i have never felt for any guy before,
not even my Ex..
I was unable to concentrate on the
remaining part of the movie i was watching
after the hug, because all my thoughts were
now on him, and even though i was the one
who pushed him away, i still wanted him to
hug  and hold me closer to himself, but
then i had to control myself, because i’m
nothing but an humble girl who has her
pride and dignity to protect, and so i stood
up minutes later, while he stared at me with
his innocent face which always make me
lose focus……..
“Let me go and sleep, i’m so tired” i said to
him with a smile, while he equally stood up
as well and held my hand.
“Will you come once you are through with
your sleep?” he asked with a pleading face,
while i looked down.
“I will try” I replied, but instead of letting
me go, he drew closer to me, and
hugged me again, while my soul melted. I
immediately fled his room without looking
back….
As i lay on my bed that evening, i battled
with my thoughts and emotions, as i prayed
for him to be real, because i really do not
want to repeat the mistake i made with my
Ex, who had equally looked so honest when
i first met him, and so in love, i was with
him then, that i freely gave him my
virginity…….
Tears fell off my eyes as i remembered how
he took my most precious asset, and i
swallowed hard as i bit my lips. I knew i
could never get over that trauma, because i
knew the pain i passed through that fateful
night. I thought he really loved me, just
because he looked decent and said those
words i wished to hear, I guess that’s one
problem every girl faces, because we never
really can tell or know the guy who really
loves us. Moreover, they all appear good
and decent at first sight, that you won’t
really see the wolf in him, if you also do
have feelings for him which will then blind
you from his faults and before you know
what, he’s had his way with you and it’s
already too late………
My thoughts really drew much tears from
my eyes that evening, and before i knew
what was happening, i was already crying
deeply, as my mind played back on how i
lost my pride to Emmanuel……..
It’s really something that touched my soul,
spirit and body, but i didn’t know it was
just a game to him. Only God will judge us
all and here is the story of how i lost my
treasure……
-To be continued-